My Two Cents...

Having a plan is wonderful, but we all have to take into consideration that plans sometimes have sidetracks and detours. This just happens to be one of yours and since you don't want to go half-assed in your attempt at Crown, my opinion is thus... Change the plan.

It can go in many directions, but the end goal should still be the same: Fight in Crown. Whether you fight in Crown this year or next, you do need to set a goal for a certain date, so you don't sidetrack yourself and never do it, BUT circumstances need to be right in key areas.

Fight for someone you want to have as your consort for many many moons in a short period of time. That being said, I have heard it said from those that have fought and won Crown in the past: Go one way or the other. In other words, fight for your spouse or fight for someone you have no romantic interest in whatsoever. Fighting for a girlfriend or boyfriend will put an unneeded strain on a relationship. With a spouse (unless, of course, you don't have a strong spousal relationship), you're in for the long haul in either case and they should already have a good idea how you'll react or won't in most given situations. With a friend, they may not have the knowledge of what you'll do or won't do all the time, but they won't be concerned about whether or not you're doing something "because of them romantically".

Enjoy yourself! Isn't that the whole point of all this anyway? If you're not having fun with the idea of fighting in Crown *right now* or are not comfortable with the situation, what's the point? I know. I can already hear it. "Well, what if I'm never quite comfortable?" Then why are you considering Crown again? A little discomfort is likely nerves - you know, dealing with the unknown. If there is a lot of discomfort, then I say don't do it.

Sum total: I know you want to fight in Crown 'someday'. I know circumstances for doing so aren't the most ideal 'right now'. Just don't let 'someday' never become 'right now'. Find the circumstances you're willing to fight with and go for it!